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to be truth, everytime when i tried to sit in front on the table and start to the so-called revision(i prefer the word 'memorizing'), i started to feel drowsy and my eyelids are so freaking heavy. and since i'm doing revisions in my room, i always ended up sleeping instead if giving my all to study. FML. deep down, i know i'm being irresponsible and naive for there might be chances to screw up my future. one thing i needed is a scholarship 'cos it would be really hard for both of my parents to afford me to pursue my higher education as i come from a lower-middle class family. the best part  is, in order to get a scholarship, one has to achieve 10A/A+(or its equivalent) to be taken into consideration. fuckety fuck. to achieve 10A- is quite a mission impossible to me let alone to achieve 10A or A+. what the hell else can i do? refuse to take the exam? yeah, like there's gonna be a school will accept me without a SPM cert. sigh. 

enough of ranting, Ka Kay. back to your books now.

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am watching Top Chef(season 3) recently on DIVA and i was like, WOW. my favourite is Hung borned in Vietnam but went to live with his immigrants parents at a very young age. well, the other contestants might find him hard to get along but i find him quite stood out from the whole team of contestants. (i always fall for the special ones, haha) you have to get a look when he's doing the cooking, so...charismatic, i would say. he always has a firm grip on himself no matter what situation and not easily influenced by other contestants and emotions. and...he looks so small when he's next to the other contestants! haha. probably because he's the only Asian in the show and i'm sure you know how tall the western people can reach. how cute. but who won the Top Chef? Hung, of course! i wish i could visit the restaurant he's working for in the future. i would love to meet him in person. such cute and lovable person.

should i change my plans to study culinary art instead of mass comm? 

i seriously doubt that.

i guess this post is long enough to make up for my always-lack-of-words posts. 

goodnight and happy studying. fuck.