Just my two cents - part 2

i still remember the day i got my SPM results.

"fuck this shit," i thought to myself as i looked on to the slip that is going (which i strongly disagree) decide my future. 

yes, my results were horrible. i cried ten rivers when i got them. so horrible that i regard myself as the dishonor to my family. people were looking how humiliated i was, and my parents were too disappointed to say a thing. 

i cried not because my efforts were not rewarded; i cried because i felt so sorry for myself for being such an overconfident ass. while my classmates were devoting themselves into those past year papers, i sank myself into the world of fiction, not giving a care to SPM at all, thinking that i've learnt enough and i'm smart enough to ace through the exam. 

well. 

during my final year in secondary school, i basically did nothing. i was so bored by those subjects in school, and couldn't wait to get out of it and study things that i love. i paid no attention in classes except for Mandarin class, and never complete any of the homework given. no, i don't hate my school life, i just hate the education system. 

SPM is just a goddamn phase. it doesn't shape one's future. yes, it helps you to get into better colleges and scholarships, but what happens next? 

when you get into college, assignments and practical work will be given and you might just realised that all that "knowledge" you've crammed into your mind isn't helping, not at all. getting straight A's doesn't mean you're brilliant. it's just a written exam. when you get into the working world, no one gives a fuck how many A's you get in SPM, your employer would be more interested in your working experience. qualification is the basic requirement in order to look for a job, but being able to handle the job practically is another story. 

the reason i'm writing about this old past of mine is that it broke my heart to see how disappointed my sister was when she got her SPM results yesterday. a month before the results are release, she had a breakdown admitting that she was really nervous about her results. the effort that she placed on her studies just isn't proportional to the results she got. 

however, i hope she will be able to look past this stupid exam and decide what to do in future. because i believe somewhere out there, great things are awaiting for her.

although i screwed up in my SPM, it doesn't stop me from chasing my dream. i am currently pursuing Journalism in TARC because i have always wanted to be a journalist/writer. 

congratulations to those who passed SPM with flying colours; for those who didn't, results don't define who you are, you do. so please please please please go on and pursue your dreams no matter what.